I am so tired. I am dumping shame. I am battling my own perceptions of beauty, femininity, motherhood, and being a spiritual being in the current world. I want to be ACTIVE with my kids… hikes, bike rides, walking long leisurely strolls to the park and then being able to play instead of sit and rest. My kids deserve more . . . And i just got diagnosed with sleep apnea, but not the obstructive kind. I am hoping by getting a Cpap machine it will take care of the tiredness and i can move on onto getting my body healthier.